World Alzheimer's Month (Better Known as Fatigue Month)

September is World Alzheimer's Month.  We raise awareness, highlight our stories, walk, raise money, raise hell.  I check out the Alzheimer's link and there are more and more celebrities who are champions to fight against Alzheimer's.  Lovely.

I'm tired.  Tired of fighting.  Tired of advocating.  Tired of answering Mom yet again in the same conversation what I plan on having for dinner.  And again.  Tired of wondering if I will end up the same way.  If Voyageur will.  Tired of worrying if Mom will have enough money to last her lifetime.

Fatigued - physical or mental weariness from exertion.  Yep, that's me.  This disease grates on you.  Over time.   Wears you down. Mental weariness from exertion.  Totally there.  And that's where grace settles in.  One of the definitions of grace is 'a reprieve'.  I also call it divine intervention.  Where -- even in the craziness of a disease like Alzheimer's -- I experience gratitude, a sense of knowing that it will be alright.  Mom calls and leaves a message, ending with 'I love you buckets'.

How can everything not be alright?

Yo, Voyageur - back at ya :)