Mixed Emotions

We are FINALLY setting up some in home care for mom.  We're meeting with a company representative on Friday, service starts next Tuesday.

Mom's conservator/lawyer commented that starting in home care could give me a bit of a break.  While this is true and on some level would be welcome, emotionally I don't want to be significantly less involved.  My compassion and love for my mom won't let me.

 I don't want her to go through this alone.  She would not let that happen to me.  I want to keep her company, want to be her buddy that whisks her away for fun and some naughty humor.  I want her to know I won't walk away, I have her back and we're in this together.  I don't want her to be alone and scared.  Weird thing to say as I'm making arrangements for an additional person to keep her company and help her clean house.  I want her to know I'm still here and I'm not going anywhere.

Meantime my work schedule increases and I'm glad to have another Team Mom member come aboard.

Back at ya Dreamer....see I woke up  ;)
xo