I Feel Like She Looks

Dreamer fell out of bed.

This photo of us explains my last few weeks.  To my mom and the challenges we face, I look like me, the older kid.  I conquer, I manage, I bring the fun. See the halo lol!

Inside, I feel like Dreamer with two black eyes and a WTF look on my face.  Our dad's mom used to say, "I'm all tuckered out."   This is what my tuckered out face looks like.

 I've been struggling with how to describe how I feel. 

I can do what's required and more, that's not the issue. Nor am I burned out, that's not it either.  The emotions and empathy I have for mom have found a home on my shoulders lately, I'm carrying them in a way I had not before.  I don't feel fully rested, I'm itchy. Part of that is the artist in me - it's the "I can't express it just yets".  I'm not refreshed/replenished.  Not sure how to get there either, though I have some ideas.  I'm sleeping the right amount of time...

So now it's time for painting, crocheting and play off hockey.  I'll heal and be refreshed. 

Meantime you've been treated to my WTF face lol.

Thanks for being here and understanding,
Voyageur