Pollyanna

"When you look for the bad in mankind expecting to find it, you surely will."


My dad operated more from the inverse of the above - not just looking for the good in people, but in every situation.  People are surprised by my upbeat attitude surrounding Mom's diagnosis and the disease of a million hellos.  (I don't get the long goodbye thing.  I feel as though I meet a new part of Mom every week, if not almost every day).  I can't help it, it's how I was raised.


So I told Mom I'm coming home for the holiday....oops.  Not a bad thing, just now a focal point.  Yesterday she called, asking if everything was ok, why was I coming home.  I assured her I'm alright, I'm coming home for Christmas, to see her and spend time with her.  


I am starting to believe this disease chisels away the old Mom, leaving pieces of her, but also reveals new parts.  Voyageur says she talks like Jesus :) There are days she sounds like an old wise guru. Not that she hasn't had her wise moments, but these gems drop out of nowhere and quite frequently.  'No one should be homeless.  If we all gave a little, no one would be homeless.' 'Do what makes you happy.  If everyone had a job they loved, there would be a lot less unhappiness.' and my favorite 'Why can't people just get along, like us? We have a great time together, don't we?'


There are many others, and they usually fall out of her mouth at a moment that's least expected.  When I'm looking for the mom I had.  Ever reminding me that the world reflects back what I seek, just maybe not quite the way I anticipated.  


Back at ya, sis.